Monthly Archives: May 2012

Learning to Love Self


So, I’m the kinda girl who hates leaving the house without make up on her face.  I’m the kinda girl who made sure her toe nails were painted ready for labour and that on the actual day wanted to do her face and her hair so she’d look half decent in the photos.  I’m the kinda girlw ho asks people to keep my head out of photos if it happens to be a day when I’ve not bothered putting make up on as I’m not going out.  I don’t want people seeing the uneven skin tone that I see or the scars on my face from when I was troubled with acne.  I want people to see someone beautiful.  Since having my baby girl, I’ve had a lot of time to think about lessons I’d like her to learn in life, and God really spoke to me about this area of my life and how heavily I depend on makeup for people’s approval.  This isn’t a trait I want to pass on to my daughter.  I don’t want her to feel that beauty is only superficial and that natural God given beauty isn’t enough so it must be covered up.  These are thoughts I want her to live by:

1 Peter 3:3-4- Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.


“For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.  For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.  For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.  For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.  For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.  People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.  As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.”  ―    Sam Levenson

I want my daughter to spend her time not chasing after superficial beauty, but cultivating a beautiful character, one of grace and gentleness, compassion and understanding.  You can have all the outward beauty in the world, but if there’s nothing to match it on the inside, it doesn’t count for a lot, and it won’t get you far in life unless you enjoy the superficial.

It’s taken many years for me to get to this point where I feel free from the prison of make up if you will.  I guess God started this change in me when a hair cut went wrong just before my daughter’s birth, and I felt stripped of something I had relied on to make me pretty, and something prompted me for the last few weeks to just try going with no make up.  My skin felt so much lighter instead of feeling weighed down and no longer did I have the feeling like it was melting underneath the foundation in hot weather.  I didn’t have to worry about it getting on my clothes etc etc.  Now, I’m not saying never wear make up or that I won’t ever wear it, I just want to teach my little girl that it’s her inner soul that will make her beautiful all the way to the outside, and it’s far better to eat healthily to keep the outer skin looking its best than trying to cover it up.


Hyperemesis Gravidarum Awareness Day 2012


Hyperemesis Gravidarum Awareness Day 2012

HG Awareness Day-it’s not just morning sickness!


Spread The Word

So, May 15th 2012 is the first annual international Hyperemesis Gravidarum awareness day sponsored by the HER Foundation.  All I can say is about time too!!!  This needs to get some serious global awareness!!  It angers me how I was treated during my pregnancy by doctors and other medical professionals who weren’t clued up about HG.  Reluctantly at around 7 weeks they gave me medication to try and stop me being sick after I landed at A and E, but I had to try various forms of the anti sickness medication and none of them were great, and even with them I was still violently sick every day.  Still they refused to recognise that I actually had HG until 18 weeks, and just kept saying it was morning sickness…despite the fact I was bedridden the whole time and needed help to just go to the bathroom!  That was the frustrating part, coming up against people who were supposed to be able to help you but who just didn’t have a clue and the only response they could give was, “It’ll be gone by week x.”  HG caused all sorts of other medical problems throughout my pregnancy as well as leaving me angry, resentful and very lonely.  I had to miss so many events because of it, we couldn’t plan to go anywhere as I never knew from day to day how severe it would be, and it was awful having the worry of what effect all this medication coupled with either no food, or a mashed potato diet for months on end would do to my unborn child.

Also, due to lack of awareness, I had no idea that after the birth I would still be suffering from this condition!!  I mentioned to my GP that I was still continually nauseated and also vomiting and was met with a blank stare and no solutions as to what it could be.  I had to do my own research which is how I discovered the HER Foundation in the first place and where I discovered that it could take up to 2 years post partum to fully recover.  People need to be made aware, families need to be made aware of this debilitating and at times fatal condition so the signs can be picked up sooner and more women helped quicker instead if it just being put down to morning sickness, those in the medical profession need to be more aware of what HG actually is, and how they can help people quicker both during the pregnancy and during the recovery period.  I hope this first annual world HG  Awareness Day is the start of great things.  It could help all the women in your life and their unborn babies if they have a better understanding of HG and are able to obtain better medical care and more understanding from those around than I ever did.  Afterall, forewarned is forearmed!!

Yard work on a sunny Saturday


Well, after weeks and weeks of rain, the sun has finally popped its head up today.  That means it’s time to get out in the garden and cut the grass.  It’s starting to look more like a meadow and a rather inviting home for a horse.  The garden is what attracted us to this house because it was so big.  I imagined our dogs running around it(they don’t run in it unless there’s a cat to chase), and I imagined a veggie patch at the bottom etc etc.  We’ve been here 2 and half years now, and has any of this materialised?  Nope!!  There was/is so much DIY needing done in the house to rectify mistakes from past owners that we’ve not been able to get time in the garden.  It looked like a jungle when we got the keys, and it’s worse now.  Bushes are taking over,weeds are the only flowers we have(and there are some huge weeds!) the grass is a nightmare to keep up with, and my veggie patch is currently a dumping ground for stuff that needs to be taken for disposal or recycling.  My grand plans for the garden have failed miserably, and I’ve definitely learned a lesson….don’t buy a house with a big garden, unless the inside of the house is in immaculate condition or it will go to waste especially if you’re not great with plants etc to begin with.  I’d like to get it sorted though because when I look out the back bedroom window it is a rather embarrassing sight indeed compared to our neighbours’ yards, but I also feel sad that there’s so much potential out there that we haven’t taken the time to unlock, and now with a little one we currently have even less time to unlock it and may never see it looking pretty in our time here.  We’ll make a start today though….at least the grass will be cut by the end of it if nothing else!  For all you people out there with big gardens and green fingers, how do you manage to keep on top of it all?!  I greatly admire you!  PS: please would you come and give my garden a make over?!?!? 🙂