It’s been 6 months; 6 whole months. Shouldn’t it get easier? Yet, somehow this month is even more painful. My body feels empty. I should be watching it grow and change, but instead there is nothing but emptiness and longing. Month after month goes by and no new life has come to soothe the heartache, to put a salve on the wounds by bringing a new joy to our life.
Our family is incomplete. People ask of me, “Is this your only child?”, referring to Miss E. I respond with a yes, because it would be too much for me to tell them that no, there is an angel in heaven that belongs to our family whom we never had the chance to meet properly. But people would never understand, for I get the impression that unless a life has fully entered the world it is considered a sub-life and, therefore, my loss shouldn’t be as great or as painful as if I had laid eyes on this child and then it were to leave me. But a mother doesn’t need to see the child to feel the love. The knowing that she carried that soul for however brief a period is enough to fuel a love so strong that even time doesn’t diminish its intensity.
Time marches on, life keeps going and I keep moving along with it, but the passing of time cannot make a mother’s heart forget, and today the memory and the loss is exceptionally raw and painful.
The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.
The child’s parents are not his makers, but his guardians.
At the end of August I ordered the very first My Little Workshop from Woodland Children. They do a My Little Atelier box for older children, but decided to see if there was any interest in one for younger children. I always want to do crafty seasonal activities with Miss E, but I just never get the time to sit and plan, purchase all the materials etc. So the My Little Workshop sounded like a great idea. You get all the materials needed(when i say all i mean all, if something requires a paintbrush or glue and a spreader you get it in the box) along with a little booklet of activities to make and other suggestions to do as well. There were also some added extras including play dough and water beads which I have always wanted to try, and now we get the chance to use them. It was a little bit slow of coming due to waiting for stock to arrive etc, but it finally arrived a few weeks ago.
nice little extra touches
supplies for lots of lovely crafts
Here are some of the crafts we have done so far:
sponge leaf printing
leaf sun catchers
felt leaf sticker
These are just a few things that came in the box, and we still have so much left to do. The whole thing cost £30 which seeing as we’ve had it a few weeks and there are still so many activities we haven’t even got to yet is well worth the money. If you live in the UK and, like me, want to do crafts with your toddlers, but find it hard to put ideas together, I’d encourage you to give the My Little Workshop box a try.
*This is my own opinion and I am receiving no form of reward for writing this. I paid for this box myself, and Woodland Children are unaware that I have written this piece.*
I am convinced that every effort must be made in childhood to teach the young to use their own minds. For one thing is sure: If they don’t make up their minds, someone will do it for them.