Since my last post, I have done an Usborne book party which was great fun. I love looking at all the books on display; it makes my heart happy.
Sad I know, but there is nothing that satisfies a book worm more than a table full of gorgeous books!
We have also spent a lot of time viewing houses, having people here to look at different options for selling our house. The viewing side of things has been a discouraging process as on paper they look great and then you go and it just isn’t as you expected or hoped. On the plus the selling side is encouraging, so, yey, things could be moving on in that area. We need to get some storage sorted and start shifting the non essentials out of the house and then at least when we do sell we won’t have loads of packing up to do which should speed things up.
And on Sunday we added a new member to our family:
I have cared for this family’s pets a few times now and the last time I cared for the rabbit and cats, Miss E fell in love. The owner felt that as her children were not giving him the attention he deserved he would be better off in a home where he was loved. So, on Sunday we finally brought him home after ensuring he had a nice, large, secure run so the dogs wouldn’t get to him. He has brought no end of joy and laughter every morning and evening as we spend lots of time with him giving cuddles. We bought him this jingly ball for rabbits at the pet shop and Miss E laughs hysterically when she rolls it to him and he picks it up and flings it back. This morning’s trip down was not so fun, however, as it was pouring with rain. The rabbit stayed nice and warm in his hutch, and Miss E and I returned to the house soaked through.
This weekend I have a stall at a Christmas Fair. That is slightly nerve wrecking. I keep wondering if I have enough stock, or enough of the right stock? What if no one buys? What if too many people are lined up to buy and I can’t cope? What if I miscalculate the change? Ah so many what ifs! I am very excited though. I love the books…I just wish i could buy the whole catalogue for myself 😉
But that has been our week so far, and next week looks to be just as busy.
I am struggling to write, struggling to un-jumble my tangled web of thoughts. Life has been so crazy hard the past few months. I talked about our issue with rats and our desire to relocate for various reasons. Our lives have taken various twists and turns since then with regards to finding homes that looked promising to move to and then it all falling through…repeatedly. It starts to get to you after a while. I am beginning to feel trapped in an endless cycle of problems, expense and despair. Our rodent friends have also returned to bother us, with yet another one getting underneath our bath. Argh!! And we have had a few issues with our two dogs that may mean we need to find them a new home. 😦 At the minute it is hard to see where God is in all of this, but I have to keep trusting that He is, because if I lost that hope and that faith I would lose my mind entirely.
So all of that has just kept my mind from focusing and my fingers from typing. I will try and do better though as we wait in this current place we find ourselves. I have missed my blog so much.
Onto some positives:
Miss E is now speaking a bit of French and German. She loves it. She cannot get enough of books and stories in foreign languages, so I have had to ask my friend in Germany to send me some over. Her interest was sparked at the Montessori group we are part of as the session starts with songs and stories in French and ends with songs and stories in German. It is lovely to see her enjoy it so much. She loves all things Montessori. We should be at our session today, but sadly we are missing out as I am sick with the flu.
I have started a new business venture with Usborne Books at Home and have become an Independent Usborne Organiser. They have some many fantastic books covering a wide age range and many topics, so I just had to become an Organiser. I have lots of events on in the run up to Christmas which is very exciting. I am looking forward to sharing the wonderful books with more people and hopefully making some friends along the way. So, if you are living anywhere in the UK or Europe check out my website where you can shop online. If you aren’t in the UK or Europe, you can still show some love by liking us on Facebook or following us on Twitter. 🙂 I hope life finds you all well.
I’ve had a super long break from writing anything, and that is mainly because the past few months have been pretty stressful and I’ve not felt like writing at all. My energy was taken up by just getting out of bed in a morning to face another day. Things have improved slightly, so I feel like writing a bit again. Life has been interesting and the results of the last few months are that we are getting our house ready for sale so we can move. We thought we had found the right house for us which was a new build and would mean it would be easier for us and we would be able to make use of the new Help To Buy scheme in the UK, but it hasn’t worked out. It was in the same area as we are now, so I am not sure whether it was the house that was wrong or the location that was wrong. There are so many reasons we have to move that are affecting my mental health and well-being as well as the more practical/financial reasons. Here’s a little list:
-The enormous amount of work needing to be done here and the huge amounts of cash the house is swallowing up with problem after problem. We bought the house as a project, and when it was just the two of us it was fine as we had time to work on it. Now, with Miss E, it is just not fair to spend all that free time on doing up a house that we always intended on selling on anyway, and we have lost the heart and vision of it with the fact it’s just draining our cash.
-The long commute Mr P has to and from work. This is a major factor (which is probably why the other house just didn’t work; it may have been a case of right house, wrong location). As it stands Mr P doesn’t get to see very much of Miss E at all, and she misses and needs daddy input into her life. It would be nice to have more family time.
-To clear debts. This house just increases our debts further with all the work and issues we have had to sort that keep mounting up. We can longer afford to do this, so we need a few years in somewhere that needs minimal work to breathe and just enjoy living again.
-Problems with rats…this is still an ongoing issue (although for now they have left us in peace) and the stress of the last 3 months of rat toture is just too much especially with a little one to think of.
-Issues with neighbours; this is a big one for me as all summer I am trapped in the house due to the obnoxious, bullying behaviour of our neighbours’ 4 children while they are on break. Yes, children can really cause that much emotional and mental stress to an adult to the point where after 4 years they can’t take anymore of it! It is unfair to Miss E not to be able to use her garden when she pleases (and she loves her garden), and I can never let her out if they are in for fear of what they might say to her.
So that’s a brief little overview of the last few months and what has been keeping me busy and away from here. Now, I am just kept busy with things like stripping wallpaper so we can finish the house up and get some buyers in to look around!
As I write, I am waiting for Mr P to come home early. He shouldn’t be coming home early, except that our poor dogs are trapped. At night time they sleep in our garage as they hate being in the house to sleep. They enjoy cozying up in their crate together in the garage and are happiest there. During the day when I want Miss E to have some time in the garden, I cannot have the dogs out at the same time. it just doesn’t work. They are in the paddling pool, walking through her painting area, eating any sensory play materials, and often knocking her over. We are in the process of sectioning off the garden so we can all be out at the same time, but have some boundaries!
Well, today like other days, I have popped the dogs to bed for a little while so Miss E can enjoy the garden dog free. After we were done at it was time for lunch, I went like normal to let them out and give htem their treat……..the garage door wouldn’t open. I pulled and pulled, but that thing wouldn’t budge. It’s stuck at the top and the top hinge is somehow broken, so no amount of willing it to move helped. I also don’t have the know how or strength to do anything more. So that is why Mr P is on his way home. They have now been stuck in the garage for 5 hours. A mega great walk is due to them upon their release!
So that is the first bad happening in the Mummy’s Heart animal kingdom. Miss E was super tired after a very long day yesterday and a very late bedtime so she wanted to go to bed early. She has some fish in her room and before bedtime the fish get fed. I dropped some food in and went off to get Miss E her toothbrush. When I looked at the tank again there didn’t seem to be much excitement about the food I put in, so I had a closer look. Only one fish was eating. I looked and looked for the other and couldn’t see it. This is nothing unusual as it likes to hide in certain spots, but I checked all the usual spots and there was no fish. Then I spotted it, stuck down the side of the tank between and ornament and the tank wall. It had taken to going down there lately and clearly this time it had gone too far and managed to get wedged there. And so, along with the trapped dogs, we have a dead fish. It hasn’t been dead for long as I saw them both alive this week, but this awful heat has meant that decomposition has already begun.
It’s a horrible day. The first time the dogs have ever been trapped and the first time one of our pets has died. It is already sad and Miss E isn’t really at an age of comprehending, but I dread the day when she is a bit older and any one of our remaining troop dies, especially the dogs as she adores them.
Hurry home, Mr P!
We did it!! We got the cat to the vet. After the realisation last night that I was going to have to take said cat to the vet with a toddler started to sink in, so did the worry. How am I going to deal with a cat and Miss Up/Down in a waiting room. We were going to the open surgery at 9 am, so I had no idea how long I would be hanging around waiting. What if Miss e gets fed up and cranky? What if I put her down and she becomes a nuisance to other pet owners. What if she picks the wrong dog to pet?! My girl loves her animals just like her mama, but she hasn’t quite got that not all animals are as friendly as the ones in her inner circle. What if she starts screeching and I can’t have a conversation with the vet about what to do with the cat? What if, what if, what if. The answer then became incredibly clear and was oh so simple: use a wrap! We love babywearing and I’ve written about it a bit in the beginning few months. Duh, of course I should use a wrap!! I set off just after 8 am with Miss E and wrap in tow. The owner had warned me the cat was a nightmare to get in the carrier, so you better believe I was praying like crazy, begging God to let him just sit serenely in the carrier while I got the door closed.
We got the house, and first thing was this was not the simple kind of pet carrier I’m used to with the little front opening door. No, this carrier had a top that came completely off with weird claspy clip things that were such a faff to figure out and close……..cue more prayer! I closed the kitchen door so he couldn’t escape as I was told he hides in the most awkward places when he sees this carrier. I picked him up, put him in and he gave a bit of a struggle, but nothing like I was expecting and I managed to get him securely held inside….thank you Lord! Off we set to the vets. The cat was making weird noises, but at the same time it also sounded like Miss E was using the same weird pitch to say hello…..I still haven’t figured out whether it was her or the cat all the time but on the way home after dropping the cat off she said nothing which makes me think it was all the cat. So my journey to and from the surgery consisted of me alternating between, “It’s ok, A.” and “Hello, Miss E!”
Once at the surgery I got Miss E securely wrapped to my front…..oh how I love wraps….and took A inside. We had to wait a little while, and the whole time I was so thankful I did not have to hold both the cat in his carrier(that was heavy enough with the use of two hands!!)and a wriggly toddler. Miss E loved the animals, both in real life and on various posters. We got the kitty sorted with a few injections and some medication to take with us, and we got him back home. Once at home, the cat went outside and sulked on the patio. He refused to look at me! Thankfully, his owners had already decided to cut their vacation short due to rainy weather, so I don’t have to attempt getting tablets and a pro-biotic paste into the cat!
I’m pleased it’s all over and yet again, babywearing has saved the day!
Sometimes we get so caught up in the everyday that we forget to keep our eyes open for moments of beauty. I am desperately guilty of this. I get bogged down in the laundry, the vacuuming, the running here and there that I forget that this life is about much more than all that. The past few days I have really taken the time to open my eyes to the beauty in my life. There is a magnolia tree in our backyard that I just love. Its flowers are a thing of beauty………..until they start dropping off and covering the garden in hard to rake up petals and leaves, but I forgive it that! So I love spring and summer when it is in bloom. Yesterday morning when I opened the bedroom curtains and it was finely outlined in snow it drew me in again as I just stood and took in its natural beauty, each flower bud sat framed in white ready for the warmer weather to finally burst forth with new life.
Also a little while ago I had said to my husband how I was sad there had been no robins around yet this winter. I love the little robin bird with its lovely red chest. Today I look out and flying all around my garden in and out are robins………..lots of robins! There must be about 20 of them in total. It made my heart happy just to seem them fluttering around and hear all their chirping.
Let us keep our eyes open to the beauty that is all around us even as we go about our everyday lives. It is there if we just choose to look for it.
Well, I’m not entirely sure when it was that Wonder Woman came and took possession of my body. My plan for today was simply to rest; sleep when baby sleeps and do little else in between. 5:15am I was up and by 9:30am I had washed, dressed, put breakfast on to cook, got the dogs up and fed, prepped and cooked our stew for this evening(we have to go out soon after my husband gets home, so it’s easiest to cook supper and then warm it up on nights like this), put diapers on to wash, sorted all the dry laundry for ironing into bags, folded and put away all the laundry not needing ironed, got my daughter up fed, bathed and dressed, cleaned the bathroom, dusted the whole house, washed up all non dishwasher dishes twice, put everything else in the dishwasher, and cleaned down the kitchen surfaces. Then I got my daughter settled for her morning sleep, and I am now sat here with a nice mug of tea, phew! Normally it would take me a huge chunk of the day to get through everything like that, so I guess I will be twiddling my thumbs a lot this afternoon! I do hope to get the dogs out for their walk as well. I’m not sure how long Wonder Woman intends on hanging around, so I’m going to make good use of her strength and speed while I can 😀