Dear Miss E,
Yesterday was a special day, for yesterday we walked A Mile In Memory Of Matilda Mae to raise money for The Lullaby Trust. We travelled down from Nottinghamshire on the Friday night. You didn’t appreciate being woken up twice from your sleep, but you were such a good soul and you did ever so well. When you got woken up the second time, we were at our hotel, so that perked you up immensely. You enjoyed exploring, eating the cookies that were in the room, and you loved your really big bed. Your found it great fun that Mummy and Daddy were once again in the same room as you and you sat up chattering away excitedly for ages before lying down to sleep.
a special big bed
In the morning you woke up bright an early, full of life ready for the special day we were going to have. You decided that you needed a lot of energy for the walk and you ate a croissant, a bowl of muesli with a pot of yoghurt, a sausage, some bacon and a slice of toast! You always eat a lot for breakfast, but never that much!
waking up with a sile
stocking up on food
After breakfast, we set off to travel the remainder of the way to the Rare Breed Centre. On the way the weather was dull and rainy and Mummy prayed that it would brighten up for Matilda Mae’s special walk. It did. By the time we got to the Rare Breed Centre the rain had stopped and the sun had popped out to say hello. We walked the mile with Matilda’s family and lots of other people who had also come to support them and to raise money for The Lullaby Trust. It was a beautiful, peaceful walk with the most gorgeous carpet of bluebells standing proud and spreading their sweet fragance on earth in honour of a beautiful little girl. Halfway along the walk we got some packets of forget me not seeds. We will plant these in pots eitherside of the front door and elsewhere in the garden and when they bloom we will talk about and remember Matilda Mae.
pink and purple balloons at the start/finish line
stopping by the star
walking with lots of other people in memory of Matilda Mae
the gorgeous bluebell carpet
You won’t be forgotten Matilda Mae
Once back at the marquee, there was entertainment for children, gorgeous violin music playing and bubbles being blown into the sky for Matilda. There was also the singing of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. You enjoyed the activities laid on by Jumping Beans and crawling on the grass. We also had a look around the centre at the animals, watched a falconry display (you were sleeping at that point) and watched some pig racing (pigs run fast!!). It was a beautiful day, but we never forgot the real reason we were there. You don’t yet understand the full significance of yesterday, but as you grow up we will remember Matilda Mae; we will talk about the impact her beautiful little life has had; we will pray for her family as we do now; we will blow bubbles for her as we do now; we will go back to the centre and do the walk again, and one day, if God chooses, you will get to experience the love of a mother for her child and the special bond that comes with it and you will fully appreciate why we chose to go on this walk and help raise money for The Lullaby Trust to help them try and find a way to stop SIDS. No mummy should ever have to be without her baby.
blowing bubbles for Matilda
bubbles floating up to heaven x
All my love,
This week, I wanted to get on with planting some more vegetable seeds as time is slowly but surely ticking away (how is it May already?!). I have a huge stack of egg cartons sat on a shelf in the kitchen and knew these would make perfect little seeding trays. I separated the lid from the bottom, pierced holes into the bottom of each little egg section for drainage and then set that back into the lid. We took our tuff spot outside along with the egg cartons, compost and some spoons etc and we enjoyed some fun in the sun. It was just what was needed after an extremely hard morning.
filling the carton with compost
it’s serious work
abandoning the spoon in favour of using her hands
I wonder what will happen if I just tip this carton upside down
hopefully lots of lovely veg will come from this
As always, click on the link button at the top and check out what other fun children have been having this week.
In Memory Of Matilda Mae On Her Birthday
Today, May 2nd 2013, Matilda Mae should have woken up to her very first birthday celebration. She should be enjoying loads of special attention from her family. She should be opening presents and eating birthday cake and doing something magical to celebrate the first year of her life. Instead, today, her family are left mourning the death of this beautiful little girl. They are left with aching hearts and empty arms. There will be no lovely photographs of Matilda today dressed in birthday finery in awe and wonder at the happenings around her. Instead there will be and mother and father and a brother and sister trying to honour her life in a fitting way and realising yet again that their precious daughter, their little sister will not be returning to them because she was taken so cruelly from them by Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. How does a parent live with that? I honestly don’t know. I break down every time I think of the hard road they are journeying down, every time I think of how unfair it is to have lost a sweet baby so soon.
Next Saturday, May 11th 2013, Mr P, Miss E and I shall be walking with a lot of other people in A Mile In Memory Of Matilda Mae. I have set up a Just Giving page where you can go and donate a small sum to sponsor us and help raise money for The Lullaby Trust. Please support us and Matilda’s family. it would mean so much to them if we could raise a good sum of money between us all for the charity in Matilda Mae’s memory.
We love a good bit of messy play in this house, and so we are linking up to share our messy play photos in memory of little Matilda Mae. x
Where our messy play began
homemade baby safe finger paints
yoghurt painty fun
scooping and pouring with cornflakes
digging in the veg plots
Why not click on the link badge at the top of this post to meet some other people who linked up and see what they are doing that’s very messy and playful.
I have written a few times about the gorgeous little Matilda Mae and her Mummy and what impact this little girl has had on my life even though I’ve never even had the pleasure of meeting her. Matilda was suddenly and awfully taken from her family by SIDS. Next month my family will have the honour of walking with Matilda Mae’s and many other people to celebrate her beautiful life and to raise money for FSIDS, the charity that supports families who have lost a child to SIDS and works to prevents SIDS, in the Mile In Memory of Matilda Mae. FSIDs the charity recently changed their name to The Lullaby Trust. Matilda’s very brave mummy launched a linky to promote the charity, and I have decided to link up and show my support for this charity and the great work they do as well and to show my support for Jennie and her family as they travel this path.
Music is so important in my life these days. I’ve always had an appreciation for music, but my daughter seemed to come out of the womb with a natural leaning towards music. She cannot get enough music. She will start swaying and dancing whenever she hears a song, she loves creating her own music and she has created in me a real love for classical music. It’s a wonder it took us so long to figure out that it would be a useful tool in calming her and soothing her to sleep! Or maybe we just didn’t fine the right song. A few months ago, however, we started singing an old lullaby to her and she loves it. We sing this to her every naptime and bedtime as she is tucked in. She lies in her bed and waits for “her song”. Sometimes, if she isn’t too sleepy yet, she’ll wave her hand to the music or gently sway. I often find myself humming it throughout the day. Long after she’s stopped needing a lullaby to sleep, this one will forever remind me of Miss E and her love of all things singing and music:
Hush, little baby, don’t say a word.
Mama’s gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won’t sing,
Mama’s gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass,
Mama’s gonna buy you a looking glass
And if that looking glass gets broke,
Mama’s gonna buy you a billy goat
And if that billy goat won’t pull,
Mama’s gonna buy you a cart and bull
And if that cart and bull turn over,
Mama’s gonna buy you a dog named Rover
And if that dog named Rover won’t bark
Mama’s gonna buy you a horse and cart
And if that horse and cart fall down,
You’ll still be the sweetest little baby in town.
This Thursday was the funeral of little Matilda Mae daughter of Jennie over at Edspire. We set up this corner in the lounge where we had a candle burning for the day and a little bottle of bubbles sat beside it (Matilda loved bubbles). So, on Thursday, every time upon leaving or entering the lounge this scene drew our hearts and minds to Matilda’s family as they said their final good byes to her and we were able to pray for them throughout the day. This little girl’s life and death have touched so many. It has touched me deeply for many reasons. One of those reasons is that little girl’s personality and likes and dislikes were so much like my own little girl. She has also taught me so much as well…..she has reminded me that life is precious, life is short, life is a gift, so make the most of it. Enjoy every minute of it. I hold my daughter tighter, I love on her more, I take as many photos as I can, I have lost the guilt, the pressure of keeping up with the house, because the time I spend with my daughter is more important than ensuring my house is as neat as pin incase guests might stop by. Every time I think of Matilda Mae I want to go pick up my daughter and hold her tight because you just never know when it might be the last time. I choose to be more gentle, more relaxed, more here all because of one special little girl’s life and tragic death. I hurt so bad for her parents and what they are going through. I cannot begin to imagine the pain and distress, the struggle of carrying on with life without your child. This situation has reminded me that I am not guaranteed another minute never mind another year with my own child, so I need to make it count.
Matilda Mae, you are such a special angel child. I am thankful to God for the joy you have brought to this earth in your all too short nine months. Thank you for teaching, me, a stranger so much. Your Mummy is also such an inspiration; you were blessed with a wonderful family. I wish I had the privilege of meeting you this side of heaven, but I know you are lighting up the skies with your beautiful smile and I look forward to meeting you one day. xxx
It has been a month since the awful tragic news of Matilda Mae’s death. I shared the story of this little girl and her family back then. This week is her funeral I do believe. Her mama is struggling. She is missing her baby so very much. She is frightened about the funeral, frightened about living without her daughter. She is struggling to find a way to live with the ache in her heart. She is exhausted trying to entertain and be happy for her lovely twins who need their Mummy oh so much as they process their grief in their own way. My heart will forever be a little bit broken for this family. I cannot begin to fathom the deep grief and anguish they live through on a daily basis. Please stop by her blog and show her some love. A simple I’m sorry for your lost might just place a little bit of a soothing balm on her aching heart today.