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A Special Day

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Dear Miss E,

Yesterday was a special day, for yesterday we walked A Mile In Memory Of Matilda Mae to raise money for The Lullaby Trust.  We travelled down from Nottinghamshire on the Friday night.  You didn’t appreciate being woken up twice from your sleep, but you were such a good soul and you did ever so well.  When you got woken up the second time, we were at our hotel, so that perked you up immensely. You enjoyed exploring, eating the cookies that were in the room, and you loved your really big bed.  Your found it great fun that Mummy and Daddy were once again in the same room as you and you sat up chattering away excitedly for ages before lying down to sleep.

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a special big bed

a special big bed

In the morning you woke up bright an early, full of life ready for the special day we were going to have.  You decided that you needed a lot of energy for the walk and you ate a croissant, a bowl of muesli with a pot of yoghurt, a sausage, some bacon and a slice of toast!  You always eat a lot for breakfast, but never that much!

 

waking up with a sile

waking up with a sile

 

stocking up on food

stocking up on food

 

After breakfast, we set off to travel the remainder of the way to the Rare Breed Centre.  On the way the weather was dull and rainy and Mummy prayed that it would brighten up for Matilda Mae’s special walk.  It did.  By the time we got to the Rare Breed Centre the rain had stopped and the sun had popped out to say hello.  We walked the mile with Matilda’s family and lots of other people who had also come to support them and to raise money for The Lullaby Trust.  It was a beautiful, peaceful walk with the most gorgeous carpet of bluebells standing proud and spreading their sweet fragance on earth in honour of a beautiful little girl.  Halfway along the walk we got some packets of forget me not seeds.  We will plant these in pots eitherside of the front door and elsewhere in the garden and when they bloom we will talk about and remember Matilda Mae.

 

pink and purple balloons at the start/finish line

pink and purple balloons at the start/finish line

 

stopping by the star

stopping by the star

 

walking with lots of other people in memory of Matilda Mae

walking with lots of other people in memory of Matilda Mae

 

the gorgeous bluebell carpet

the gorgeous bluebell carpet

 

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You won't be forgotten Matilda Mae

You won’t be forgotten Matilda Mae

 

Once back at the marquee, there was entertainment for children, gorgeous violin music playing and bubbles being blown into the sky for Matilda.  There was also the singing of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.  You enjoyed the activities laid on by Jumping Beans and crawling on the grass.  We also had a look around the centre at the animals, watched a falconry display (you were sleeping at that point) and watched some pig racing (pigs run fast!!).  It was a beautiful day, but we never forgot the real reason we were there.  You don’t yet understand the full significance of yesterday, but as you grow up we will remember Matilda Mae; we will talk about the impact her beautiful little life has had; we will pray for her family as we do now; we will blow bubbles for her as we do now; we will go back to the centre and do the walk again, and one day, if God chooses, you will get to experience the love of a mother for her child and the special bond that comes with it and you will fully appreciate why we chose to go on this walk and help raise money for The Lullaby Trust to help them try and find a way to stop SIDS.  No mummy should ever have to be without her baby.

 

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blowing bubbles for Matilda

blowing bubbles for Matilda

 

bubbles floating up to heaven x

bubbles floating up to heaven x

 

 

All my love,

Mummy xxx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A Mile In Memory Of Matilda Mae

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In Memory Of Matilda Mae On Her Birthday

In Memory Of Matilda Mae On Her Birthday

 

Today, May 2nd 2013, Matilda Mae should have woken up to her very first birthday celebration.  She should be enjoying loads of special attention from her family.  She should be opening presents and eating birthday cake and doing something magical to celebrate the first year of her life.  Instead, today, her family are left mourning the death of this beautiful little girl.  They are left with aching hearts and empty arms.  There will be no lovely photographs of Matilda today dressed in birthday finery in awe and wonder at the happenings around her.  Instead there will be and mother and father and a brother and sister trying to honour her life in a fitting way and realising yet again that their precious daughter, their little sister will not be returning to them because she was taken so cruelly from them by Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.  How does a parent live with that?  I honestly don’t know.  I break down every time I think of the hard road they are journeying down, every time I think of how unfair it is to have lost a sweet baby so soon.

Next Saturday, May 11th 2013, Mr P, Miss E and I shall be walking with a lot of other people in A Mile In Memory Of Matilda Mae.  I have set up a Just Giving page where you can go and donate a small sum to sponsor us and help raise money for The Lullaby Trust.  Please support us and Matilda’s family.  it would mean so much to them if we could raise a good sum of money between us all for the charity in Matilda Mae’s memory.

 

 

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Our Messy Play In Photos

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We love a good bit of messy play in this house, and so we are linking up to share our messy play photos in memory of little Matilda Mae. x

Where our messy play began

Where our messy play began

spaghetti worms

spaghetti worms

homemade baby safe finger paints

homemade baby safe finger paints

 

yoghurt painty fun

yoghurt painty fun

 

sandpit play

sandpit play

 

scooping and pouring with cornflakes

scooping and pouring with cornflakes

 

planting flowers

planting flowers

 

homemade playdough

homemade playdough

 

painting outdoors

painting outdoors

 

digging in the veg plots

digging in the veg plots

 

Why not click on the link badge at the top of this post to meet some other people who linked up and see what they are doing that’s very messy and playful.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Matilda Mae

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This Thursday was the funeral of little Matilda Mae daughter of Jennie over at Edspire.  We set up this corner in the lounge where we had a candle burning for the day and a little bottle of bubbles sat beside it (Matilda loved bubbles).  So, on Thursday, every time upon leaving or entering the lounge this scene drew our hearts and minds to Matilda’s family as they said their final good byes to her and we were able to pray for them throughout the day.  This little girl’s life and death have touched so many.  It has touched me deeply for many reasons.  One of those reasons is that little girl’s personality and likes and dislikes were so much like my own little girl.  She has also taught me so much as well…..she has reminded me that life is precious, life is short, life is a gift, so make the most of it.  Enjoy every minute of it.  I hold my daughter tighter, I love on her more, I take as many photos as I can, I have lost the guilt, the pressure of keeping up with the house, because the time I spend with my daughter is more important than ensuring my house is as neat as pin incase guests might stop by.  Every time I think of Matilda Mae I want to go pick up my daughter and hold her tight because you just never know when it might be the last time.  I choose to be more gentle, more relaxed, more here all because of one special little girl’s life and tragic death.  I hurt so bad for her parents and what they are going through.  I cannot begin to imagine the pain and distress, the struggle of carrying on with life without your child.  This situation has reminded me that I am not guaranteed another minute never mind another year with my own child, so I need to make it count.

Matilda Mae, you are such a special angel child.  I am thankful to God for the joy you have brought to this earth in your all too short nine months.  Thank you for teaching, me, a stranger so much. Your Mummy is also such an inspiration; you were blessed with a wonderful family.  I wish I had the privilege of meeting you this side of heaven, but I know you are lighting up the skies with your beautiful smile and I look forward to meeting you one day. xxx